it's easy to wanna join the rest of the crowd in walking away when it conveniently seems like an appropriate time to.
but who am i to desert that which i've been called to?
is it in our position to decide where and when we wanna walk out of ministry and give up?
when it seems so hopeless where we have been placed, should we just let it go and leave for a better place(or at least what looks to be a better place)?
i have to admit, i'm not free of such thoughts.. but the God we worship, is it not the God they worship?
is it LOW ENOUGH to be like a bottle of shampoo??
"oh, i don't really like this smell anymore.. let's go buy another one.."
"this one more convenient la.. save petrol"
"i need one with anti dandruff"
"i need one with people who actually smile.. here they're so much more friendly"
"i dunno, but lately this one really makes my scalp itch, i wanna try sunsilk"
"i really can't take the way they're doing this.. i don't feel COMFORTABLE here"
and at the end of all this thoughts.. one big question... when i think of such things.. WHAT or WHO am i really thinking about?? ME?? MYSELF?? I??
but then of course i realise that it's NOT AT ALL about me.. that's not what we are called to.. who am i to make such a selfish decision??