IsAIaH 55:9

"As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts."


"If the truth doesn't save us, what does that say about us?"


Sunday, July 26, 2009

ancora imparo

i still learn. any MONASH student (who isn't oblivious to the world) would know that

have you ever felt like you've arrived? like you know it all? that you're just right and nothing else could ever shake you? And no i'm not necessarily talking about a continuous state of mind. It could be just one of those fleeting moments, right before you stop to correct the thought in your head. But the thought existed.

I mean everyone knows that we're constantly learning and growing, every moment. But why is it sometimes you just get this feeling in your head (albeit for a couple of moments) that you're ok. ALREADY I realised it usually happens to me when all seems well. but then something just has to fall apart right there. It never lasts.

When glass is broken, when an unexpected change occurs. then you learn. But why is it sometimes that glass has to be broken so many times? why do i keep doing it over and over again? it's cos i'm tyring to do it alone. WHat an idiot i am. your assumptions change, and more often than not, you learn that assumption is futile.

But no... do we really learn? if we know it's useless, then why do we still hold SO MANY assumptions in our head about.. everything? think about it.. seriously.. the stereotypes, the baseless certaintywhich only gets broken by being proven wrong.

What do you do when you're caught in a downward spiral? you BREAK OUT. thank God that He's in the breaking and rebuilding business.. what would i be if not

ancora imparo.. i still learn

Monday, June 22, 2009

the power of a significance

I was just listening to two very widely listened-to songs.

1. the bittersweet symphony by the Verve

2. viva la vida by coldplay

I suddenly realised something about the human mind and how each of us uniquely links our preference of music to a certain meaning it carries to our minds (and the incredible thing about this is the fact that it is completely independent of the genre or type of the music) If you think about it you'd find that some, if not all of your favourite music appeals to you in a certain way because something about it strikes out in one of these to you
  • it invokes a memory to you
  • someone who means a lot to you likes it making it a "connection" sort of attraction to the song/music etc.
  • it's a feat (you admire the work and achievement of the music as seen by those who created it and perceived by other people)
  • It creates a certain atmosphere that you like to be in (soothing, rebellion, relaxed, harsh, whatever you like)
  • it's a habit--something you've come to appreciate simply by having been exposed to it very much whether or not by your choice

it's quite amazing really when you think about this and how some songs impact you in this way and some just have no meaning of effect whatsoever on you. Music ain't just a bunch of sound eh? Here's what i believe. It's a language. It speaks to those who understand it's uniqueness and carries a universality of thought without words. ANd BEST OF ALL IT IS NOT confined by the ethnicity or linguistic constraints of written or verbal language. No wonder we worship God with our music.

Judges 5:3 "Hear this, you kings! Listen, you rulers! I will sing to the LORD, I will sing; I will make music to the LORD, the God of Israel.

Monday, April 20, 2009


i couldn't have ever done it myself. but HE helped. and it all fell through. three nights, by the grace of GOD. what a lovely experience. unforgettable. :)

never thought it'd turn out the way it did, ut it just proves that God is real, and despite the fact that so many things were crashing down around me, he still carried everything through just as HE saw fit.

am reminded of the story of God having a chat with a man, as they traced their footsteps along the beach where they had once walked together.. and there came a point where there was only one set of footsteps.. the man turned around and asked God what this meant. and HE replis "my child, that was when you fell, and i carried you in my arms"

1 I lift up my eyes to the hills—
where does my help come from?

2 My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.

3 He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;

Psalm 121:1-3

Friday, March 27, 2009

the goodness and severity

today i was reading the story of Uzzah the Perrizite, who was charged with the responsibility of guiding the cart carrying the ark of the covenant. IT was interesting to note what happened to him when he reached out to grab the ark when the oxen stumbled.

2 Samuel 6:7 "7 The LORD's anger burned against Uzzah because of his irreverent act; therefore God struck him down and he died there beside the ark of God."

this account in biblical history has always got me wondering. i mean, hello, GOD? he was trying to protect the ark from falling wasn't he? i mean he did it to save and protect Your ark? but then. after some time pondering and thinking, i realised that God was teaching Israel, (and in this case, King DAvid) a very important lesson, but sadly, Uzzah had to pay for it with his life. The lesson learnt is this, that for God, OBEDIENCE is foremost. he doesn't need your good INTENTIONS or IDEAS or what you think is the right way to do His work, no He doesn't, all He asks is for you to be AN OBEDIENT CHILD to His will. It's quite simple really, it's just us humans who complicate everything with all our intelligent solutions.

And the answer to Uzzah's problem i realised, lies in 1 chonicles 15:2 , "Then David said, "No one but the Levites may carry the ark of God, because the LORD chose them to carry the ark of the LORD and to minister before him forever.""

Quite amazing isn't it? it took a DEAD man before David realised what He'd done wrong. God said it!! the levites, and not a couple of BULLS were supposed to carry the ark.

And this i wish to relate to our own lives, our own worship unto HIm. I stress again that God doesn't require our great ideas and manner of doing things to impress Him. No, there IS NO impressing Godm simply because He is perfect. what He desires from us i a heart that LOVEs him and is willing to OBEY when he calls, even though it seems like we may have a better way of doing it.

Remember, God is kind, and merciful! but also do not forget that he is a HOLY GOD.. and no form of UNRIGHTEOUSNESS can stand before HIm. Do not take His mercy for granted, for it's serious consequences to bear otherwise. Yes he is a good God, but don't play the fool with the fact that there IS NONE BESIDE HIM in greatness!

Romans 11:22
Therefore consider the goodness and severity of God: on those who fell, severity; but toward you, goodness, if you continue in His goodness. Otherwise you also will be cut off.

Monday, March 23, 2009

tagged (carmen)

1.Does it matter to you if your boyfriend or girlfriend smoke?
No smoking, else i SMoke them.. i HATE smoke.

2.How about drinking?
As long as it's not more than i do-- small amounts (good for health.. heh)

3.Do you like someone you can't have?
Rihanna! (but no, i don't like like her)

4.If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
No. Unless you're my girl.

5.What's your favourite sport?

6.Its Saturday night, and you're home alone... what do you do?
Blog, sleep early, read, study

7.Do you like roller coasters?

8. When's the perfect time to have a bf/gf?
wHEN it's time

9.If you could date any celebrity, who would it be?
Rihanna! (again)

10.What are you doing this weekend?

11.What is your favourite restaurant?
Hard Rock Cafe

12.Have you ever hugged someone?

13.Ever kissed someone you weren't attracted to?
Yeah, annabelle wong!! haha.. when we were leetle kids (WHOOPS, I'M SO DEAD FOR THIS)

14.Do you like anyone right now?

15.What is the first thing you notice about the opposite seX?

16.Which do you prefer, Beach or Mountains?
anything lah, depends on my mood

17.What kind of phone do you have?
Nokia 3110

18.Computer or Laptop?
I think that's obvious, for mobile reasons

19.Jeans or Sweats?

20.Which year(s) has/have been the best so far?

21.How old are you gonna be on your next birthday?

22.What should you be doing right now?
Dreaming, that's my profession

23.What is your favourite TV show?
heh, NONE! i hardly phreaking watch tv anymore :(

24.What's been your last purchase?
lunch, at MEDAN

25.Are you attracted to girls/boys that smoke?

26.Have you ever fallen on your butt in front of a crowd of people?
ya, in class.. it's good to cheer people up, fall on your butt while balancing on two chair legs

27.What do you do when you're at home?
Sleep (it's a bad sign, i need to spend more time at home)

28.What is your favourite subject?
Fluid mechanics.

29.What's the best thing that's ever happened to you?

30. Tag 10 people: randomly
Mabel, Julia, darren here, cheryl tan, chew and the rest... you tag yourself lah

Monday, March 16, 2009

internal combustion

The internal combustion engine, based on the OTTO gas cycle. A sublime piece of genius so many of us unwittingly take for granted.

Fireworks, explosions, ignition of a fuel-air mixture.

it's quite amazing that it's just one of those stunningly simple things, like burning a candle-- that one of these engines require to move you. i mean, imagine what would happen if you poured a whole tank of petrol on the ground and burned it. You'd get an explosion of proportions.. LOTSA enerGY! HOT!..

but some smart people figured out how to use that to drive you to school everyday, to get you to the movies with your friends without having to take HOURS to WALK there. to build it in such a way that saves your money by using LESS petrol!

i take my hat off to them.. and so should you..

Here's to the engineers who work so hard to make the world a better place

Friday, February 20, 2009

when past dictates

it's so easy to allow your present to be influenced by your past. it certainly doesn't require much effort to place blame on who you WERE, to explain, and more often than not, carry as an EXCUSE for who you are. and to those of you who feel that you are in such a situation i have this to say: SNAP OUT OF IT! seriously, everyone of us has HUGE potential. and it's up to YOU to pick up the pieces where they've broken and do a renovation.

another point. digression. it's funny how people mature and grow, but yet it's possible to digress. to sorta, ANTI-mature. a point where you take a step backwards instead of forward. where you see yourself making mistakes you made and so-called already "learned from". and when that happens.. you have to DECIDE and DETERMINE.. and trust me, it's for reasons like this that we have JESUS! because it's no problem deciding and determining, but when it comes to executing it's a WHOLE different plane altogether..

so here's to CHANGE! here's to moving forward.. forgetting what lies behind.. and here's to being more like Jesus everyday!.

Ezekiel 36:26
I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.