I realised last night more clearly than ever that it's impossible to grade every situation in your life in black and white. You can never be certain that some things are like this and some things are like that. More often than not we tend to make assumptions based on our past experiences to try and explain what is happening to us right now. For instance, if we have realised that it is a NORM for people in this situation to never act in a certain way because of their condition, we automatically assume that when we are in the same condition, we need not worry about having to cope with problems related to that..
This is where i am so badly mistaken. TRUTH is it is when you're most unprepared or not expecting something to happen that it does. when you think that you're not vulnerable to a certain feeling or attitude, that you end up experiencing it. when you hold on to your belief so strongly that something could never happen to you and it does.. what happens?? you end up CONFUSED.. not knowing what to hold on to. it's quite scary really.. when your beliefs are challenged. And michelle, i have mentioned this to you before, only GOD is absolute.. when all that you think IS is NOT anymore.. you can rest assured that He never changes.
And as for you who knows what i speak of.. there IS nothing to worry about. i was just so shocked because i thought such a state would never be arrived at in our relationship.. but thank GOD it's okay... i'll sort it out with Him.. i promise.. :) because.. in the midst of the confusion..